Wanting to kiss other girls isn't the norm?

As I have mentioned in my introduction blog I thought I was the straightest girl on the planet. I grew up having crushes on boys (Jon Bon Jovi was my first), dating them, going to prom with my high school sweet heart, and to top the icing on the straight girl cake I even got married and had a baby. The entire time this was going on did I believe it was a sham? Was a stuck in the closet? Did I yearn for a female companion? No No and Maybe. I grew up dating and marring men not because thats what was expected from me but because plain and simple I thought it was every girls fantasy to kiss and even yes have sex with other women. Gods honest truth and why wouldn't I think that way look at women they are gorgeous. Who wouldn't be interested or at least curious on what being with another girl would be like? Well let me tell you who, straight girls. Now I can't speak on the behalf of every straight girl out there but it has become more and more aware to me that these thoughts never cross their minds. Now mind you I did only learn this after I started my relationship with my girlfriend. I can see her laughing at me as I tried to tell her my thought process. After this realization it was like something hit me. BAM! I am a lesbian. With my prior experience with men you might say doesn't that make you a bisexual? I say no. Bisexual is a person who has an attraction to both sexes and currently at this time I don't. I identify as a lesbian woman. Will that ever change? I don't know and thats the great thing about being human. You can chose to be anyone you want to be and change at any time! The spectrum of sexuality which my genius girlfriend likes to talk about (ps she likes to call herself queer) is an amazing thing. Its not a box of straight, bi, or gay but more of a rainbow (no pun intended) of possibilities. Why am I writing about all this? Well I can't be the only person who was unsure of who she was.  I really can't be the only one that thought girl on girl thoughts are normal for everyone out there. If you are reading this and thought wow thats me or geez Ive felt that way before, Im here to say its ok. Do what you want, feel how you want to feel, and most important love who you want to love.