Momma, Mommy and Me

I want you to think back at a time when you were a child. Who was the first person you went to when you were mad, sad, happy, or just wanted someone to talk to? Mine was my mother (thats a whole other blog though) The old saying two heads are better than one is oh so true. I like to call it two moms are better than one. I believe my daughter has it made by having two moms. Double the love and comfort mothers can give. Now mind you she wasn't born with two moms. When I met my girlfriend she was on her way out to California to start her career and finally live out her dream. Who wouldn't rather be in California than Wisconsin. We went out a few times and still she had planned to move that all changed when she met penny. Now I'm not saying my child is so adorable that she could make anyone drop their life long dreams and stay living in hell. Something about that first time the met something clicked like an automatic bond. I still to this day wonder if penny is really Jessie's child and not mine. At the time I think that the last thing on Jessie's mind was to become a mother but in a matter of weeks that exactly what she had become. She was a natural. Penny was ten months when we started dating so Jessie has been there for all her big moments. Jessie taught her one of her first words, helped her to start crawling, and when penny finally decided to start walking her first steps were to Jessie and not me. Like I said I often wonder if she is Jessie's child. She has blonde hair just like her. They have the same taste in music and dance moves. The same mannerisms and same vocabulary. She is the first one penny imitates. Penny loves her exactly the same as she loves me to say that this is not a true family is the most laughable thing I've ever heard. We are the true example of family and love. Jessie dropped everything to be apart of us. I can't imagine mine and penny's life without her.

Dear Mr. President

In the 2008 election I was so proud to be voting for a president that I actually believed in. Change Change Change Yes we can Yes we can Yes we can. I now here I sit four years later and wondering where my change exactly is? I feel even more lost than I did back then. Two things I am so passionate about, medical marijuana and equality for all, my beloved president can't seem to make up his mind on. When he was running his campaign he promised that marijuana patients would be protected and the medication would be easily available. He made me feel that all states would be able to receive this as a viable medication option. The opposite of that dream world is what we are living in now. Dispensaries which pay state and federal taxes are being raided on a daily basis. Peoples lively hoods are being destroyed by the government. Patients are unable to receive their medication. Lives are being ruined. All of this under President Obama's command. A man who has admitted that he has used marijuana. "As a kid I inhaled quite frequently. That was the point.""I think that we need to rethink and decriminalize our marijuana laws. But I’m not somebody who believes in legalization of marijuana. What I do believe is that we need to rethink how we are operating in the drug wars, and I think that currently we are not doing a good job.” This was his stance back in 2007 on how to treat marijuana. I couldn't agree with him more. Im not looking for full legalization (but I would vote that way if the option ever came up to vote) only for patient use. This is a drug that over and over has been proven to help with thousands of issues. Now in 2012 he is treating marijuana as a hard core drug that needs to be stopped, which is hurting more than helping. Do I think he used his stance on marijuana to gain votes back in 2008? Yes and now he's using his new stance to do the same as well. As a lesbian woman I hope you can see how this scares the shiz out of me. In 2010 when he repealed don't ask don't tell I cried. It was a movement that this country needed and now with that he is standing up for marriage equality it seems that we keep moving forward. Do I think he is using this to gain votes? YES. I just pray that he won't flip flop on this issue as well. Mr. President you do have my vote but how does that saying go? "Fool me once shame on you. Fool me twice shame on me"